Sorta Daily Gratitude - December 23 - 25



December 23 - 25

These past few days I am grateful for:
  • good music and the invention of live streams to still be able to experience some incredible sets from my favorite artists
  • Discord and Facetime for keeping me connected with my most important people  
  • being grateful for what I have and not needing to keep asking for more and more
  • naps
  • being able to cook a good meal. I cooked a super healthy but filling meal for Christmas and it was very satisfying 

Daily Gratitude - December 22, 2020


 December 22, 2020

Today, I am grateful for:

  • walks on the beach with my family
  • the ability to be able to work from home
  • people who are kind
  • being able to have influence and make a difference in the music industry
  • having a very open line of communication with my partner 
  • my bed

Meditation Reflection - December 21, 2020


I just did my first meditation for the first time in a really long time and it brought up some really interesting thoughts and feelings within me. 

I set my intention to live a more authentic life. My mind immediately brought up some things in my life that are both authentic and unathentic. 

Things that are authentic:

  • my love for these spiritual topics and diving into my consciousness and unconsciousness
  • my love for movement and connecting with my body, mind, spirit, and Earth through that movement
  • my full-time job at a company I really love

Things that are unauthentic: 

  • some people I'm involved with for work purposes. This year with them has just felt very fake and that energy has really been not sitting well with me all year. I want to wait it out until shows come back and we can interact in person so I can really assess the situation. But all in all, some true colors have been shown and I've just been ignoring it but it's obviously really affecting me on many levels. 
Super interesting what comes up when you just let the mind go. The mind knows. The body knows. The spirit knows. They all know what's up and it's up to our conscious mind if we want to act on it and deal with it or not. 

I'm going to keep reflecting and working on these things. My spirit needs it badly. 

Conjunction Manifestations - Saturn and Jupiter in Aquarius



As you've seen, Saturn and Jupiter are in conjunction as we speak (well, type/read). Saturn brings discipline and commitment while Jupiter brings optimism and expansion. On top of the great things these planet's conjunction has to offer, Jupiter and Saturn are crossing paths in Aquarius, not only bringing in a big conjunction but also bringing in the Age of Aquarius.

Here is a definition of the Age of Aquarius:

A common position expressed by many astrologers sees the Age of Aquarius as that time when humanity takes control of the Earth and its own destiny as its rightful heritage, with the destiny of humanity being the revelation of truth and the expansion of consciousness, and that some people will experience mental enlightenment in advance of others and therefore be recognized as the new leaders in the world.

This meaning, this is the perfect time to create a new world and reality for yourself. 

Here's what I am manifesting: 

  • moving out and creating my place of solstice in 2021
  • making more and more money to stay sustained on my own
  • health for the world
  • raising my consciousness and self-awareness. diving into shadow work. 
  • stop being so hypocritical and just stay in my lane - a true sign of self-awareness
What are you manifesting tonight?

currently


I love doing currently's because it's a nice little snapshot of this moment in time. It's time to start doing these again. 

listening: Eco - CloZee Remix of Axel Thesleff
eating: homemade Zupa Soup. SO GOOD.
drinking: water, water, coffee...
wearing: Athliesure. That's all I've worn in 2020 really.
feeling: tired but motivated to get work done.
weather: cold and overcast. 
wanting: to write for myself more. It's truly all I have.
needing: to EAT. I'm constantly hungry this time of the month if you know what I mean. 
thinking: about everything I need to do now to leave town for NYE. 
enjoying: my job. I'm so grateful and really love what I do. 
reading: NOT ENOUGH. I don't read like I used to and don't like that! Definitely something to fix in 2021. 
writing: not much :/ I really want to make this more of a priority. Another thing to fix in 2021. 
hoping: to move out next year for good. I say this every year and it never happens. 
craving: Something unhealthy that I definitely shouldn't be eating. 
obsessing: over music. As always. 


What are some of your responses to these?

Thoughts on Personal and Sacred Space

Having your own personal and sacred space is so important. Having those spaces this year has been really hard for me. I live at home due to a terrible time finding a full-time job and finding steady income, nevertheless the pandemic that hit this year. I’ve had to find solstice during strange hours and it’s caused me to cherish everything little quiet moment that much more.

It’s noon on a Thursday and no one is home and I’m playing hookie from work so I can have some uninterrupted me time. That’s one benefit of working from home and being a contractor. You're on your time and no one else. But the drawback is that my personal and sacred space has also become my workspace and sometimes it’s hard to separate the two.

Your sacred space should be comfortable, cozy, and a place where you can be the ultimate version of yourself. Tons of pillows, comfort items, candles, and warmth. It should be a place of solitude where no one else can enter without your permission.

I really want to work on my personal and sacred space because currently, it is chaotic and not a place of solstice for me. It’s messy, it doubles as my office, anyone walks in at any time, and it just overall does not have good vibes. Definitely, something I’m going to put some work into for the end of the year.

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Writing for Myself

It’s been a while since I’ve written just for me and I think that’s why I feel so mentally blocked. I don’t even feel just creatively blocked, but blocked in every way. I’m still me and still know who I am but I’ve definitely strayed from that girl who could easily tap into her feelings and her mind and just write and write and write.

I’ve always wanted to write as a career and am definitely doing that now, but writing for other people and not for my pleasure has gotten monotonous and I can feel myself slipping away from the passion I’ve had for writing before. All I do is write for clicks and write for promo and not from the heart anymore and that’s just not the way to go through this life.

Creativity needs to come from within and needs to be something you genuinely love doing and something you would die doing. I DO love my writing job and love what I’m writing about and what I’m promoting…so I guess I just miss me and miss writing for me. I used to have a blog in college and it has some incredible content on it that I will always cherish. I want this throughout my twenties too and I’ve lost it and I desperately want it back.

So, this is me taking it back.